Is there a God?

I still don't know the answer to that question. I do know that I lean very strongly against there being a god. I have many valid reasons to reason this, yet Christians are funny people, they will not believe someone has good reasons for not believing. They don't listen to your reasons, no matter how valid they are. They turn everything around to as somehow you were damaged and lost your way, but that God has not left you, you've left God.

Everything is about belief and blind faith. I can not do blind faith again for anyone. If there is a god, he/she/it should be powerful enough, in light of all they created and intelligent enough, to prove their existence through the science they obviously love so much that they used in every aspect of creation. If science is so vital to life, which there is no denying that, then why can't science be used to prove to us doubters that there really is a being who controls things? Is that so much to ask?

As a parent, you wouldn't want your children to just believe any stranger that came up to them and made some claim. You would want your children to be smart enough to ask questions, to ask for proof of any given claim, before they blindly wondered off with a stranger into a weird way of life. You don't want your children to be anyone's fool. Isn't God the ultimate parent? Shouldn't he want us to question and demand proof. Why does he supposedly want us to just blindly follow some stories being told to us by people motivated to get us to follow along?

None of the God claims make any sense when put to the test of logic, yet God had to have the ultimate logic to create the science that rules the creation.

There is logic and science behind everything that exists, except God. In him, you must "blindly believe". Somehow, giving over your reason for blind belief makes you a "better" person or more open soul. Can anyone say gullible?

Deep down, I want there to be a god. The thought of nothingness on the other side of life is not pleasant for me and I cling to the childhood dreams of a magical world beyond this one in which I will be reunited with all my loved ones...especially my mother whom I miss daily.

All I can say at this point, is that I hope I'm wrong about God, but I fear I am not.